Dark Star mirrors and tugs across the Galaxy

I have been hearing amazing story after amazing story about M's new girlfriend, Tiff. On Sunday, I finally got to meet her. Her birthday is three days away from mine. She's a Gemini, like me and she used to be a stage manager, like me. She's tall and thin, like me and she has a serious and intent side, like me. She also has an infectious little grin, but the discerning public will have to weigh in on whether that is another way in which she is like me. (smile) M told me that I would really like her, and I do.

M and Tiff met when they were 17. They were friends, but always fighting and after some time closed the books on their friendship. They fell out of each other's lives for 13 years. Now in their early 40's, Tiff decided to get back in touch with M. This was shortly after the shooting, so she was able to google her without too much difficulty. M was in a long-term relationship at the time, but Tiff contacted her and said, "I want to be in your life, whatever that means, however that works. I never want to cut out and leave you again."

They found themselves back in the emotional space that they had years and years ago, sharing that special connection that had always been there. When M's relationship ended, they got together, of course, and not fighting at all, but deeply committed and in love.

I met Tiff in the middle of a crowd outside, in the rain and she told me about being young, not being able to figure the strong feelings out, feeling this deep connection and feeling inexorably drawn to M. She told me about getting older, reaching a point and having an inexplicable feeling that she had to get in touch with M. She spoke very plainly and sincerely about meeting M again, having perspective, knowing that she never wanted to leave M again and telling her that. Telling me that.

I was shocked and awed by her clarity, openess and vulnerability in telling her story. Tiff also had this sense of groundedness that made these statements carry weight; these were not the wild statements of someone who is in the blush of the first year of a relationship.

I won't tell you what she told M after she met me, but I it surprised me as though she had seen a secret part of myself. Her statement was sincere and intuitive and made me wonder if those secret undercurrents of life really do exist and if the world is perhaps a lot bigger than the walls I create for myself. Weirdly enough, I think I have a sense of what people feel like at certain moments when they talk to me.